Diary Entry - 17 "My soul sister and unrivaled friends"

Hello Jenny. :D Fine day Sunday, ha? :) Why are you always sitting here in my paradise? Don't you have anything better to do? Hehe. I know, I know, you like me and moreover you like my stories. Yeah that's why I am more open to you than anybody else, I guess. :D

So, today I am gonna introduce a new person to you, Jenny. Ashima. She was my junior at college. The one and only girl who I call and treat as a sister. About her, I still remember, I didn't know her till she sent me a friend request in Facebook. She really like my singing I guess. That's why she started chatting with me. But now its like, there is not even a single day without her message. I really like her Jenny. As you know, I don't have a sister, off-course I do have many cousins, who I don't  even have contact with. Ashi is really a good girl or may be one of the best I have seen in that college and now she is always there for me. In all my happiness and sadness.

With Ashi - at NIT

We became more close in my final year. There are many reasons why I like her so much. She is cute, very funny and  too good in spontaneous jokes. :D and after all she has a good heart. I never seen a girl who is so unselfish. She is so benevolent and I really like her for that. That's why I call her "my sister" from the heart.
Even my best friends may forget to message me everyday, but she won't.(no offense to whosoever intended) :) She knows most of my stories. So Jenny, I would call her my soul sister. :) Even now she is messaging me. :D Ahem, sorry for that. I hope she will always be the same and I don't want to lose her in my life.

The college has given me the best time of my life Jenny. I am really so glad that I have got the best people in this world as my friends. You know what, Nithin calls me most of the days. It's a great thing I guess. I really admire him for that. He is very busy studying for GATE Exam. But still, he calls everyone of us more often. And then Sarath, who is always there for me when I need him. I owe him big time. :D
Jenny, there is nobody in this world who is so busy, it's all about priorities. When you no more care for or miss somebody, their part in your life is over. And you find reasons to keep them off the boundary. But I am telling you Jenny, I will never be like that. I will always be there for my loved ones. Off-course even I may become busy one day. But I will definitely find time from my personal life for those who need me.

Nitin, me and Sarath - back in the summer of 2011

I know the value of friendship very well. I have gone through the toughest times of my life and all I had then was my friends. In the end all we have will be our friends who can offer a shoulder when we are down. I really know how they can support and lift us up from the most perplexing and thorny situations. So how can I leave them Jenny? If I have earned something in life, it's them. Now it's like I have houses in all 14 districts of Kerala. :D I will never miss them in my life for nobody. Love'em all :)

So, I shall take leave now Jenny, gotta go. I promised Amma to take her for a marriage reception. :-/ Yeah I know, it's so awkward but I have to. See you later. Take care and bye-bye till then. :)

Diary Entry - 16 "The Cinderella story"

Dear Jenny, I hope you are fine. As I promised, I am back. So what's up with thee? Hey, I wanna ask you something. Did you really like my stories? You sure you wanna keep on hearing my stuff? Well I guess its not so bad. You know, I can't invent new stories to make you comfortable. What I am telling you is true to best of my consciousness. So, I think you like it, your cute curious face is pushing me to tell the rest of my story. :D

Where we stopped? Yeah Manthra. The one thing that steered me to many great things. :) We all had so much fun working together. I could get close to some best people around. One of them was Sharanya. She is more like a elder sister to me. I call her didi(elder sister). She was from my place, so we became close in no time :) I think she is the only senior who is very close to me even now.

After performing at the stage, it was really a great experience. We all wanted to improve so badly and give the audience a better show in the next college day. Me and Rethin, did not stop, we continued practicing and recorded a few cover songs in my small camera and made it live on YouTube, and off-course we got some views and likes :D

Days passed, it was our third year and one day Rethin came with a lyrics in his hand. He said, he have taken it from the internet. It was written by a not so famous artist and he wanted to make the cover of the song. I agreed, but I never heard the song before and so he started teaching me the music progression of the song. It was very good music, very soothing and chilling kind of composition and lyrics. I really liked it and hence learned it so fast. I liked the title much more. It was named "Cinderella". Jenny, you know I was so obsessed with Sasha at that time and when I heard the name Cinderella, I started imaging Sasha in the Cinderella costume and that propelled me to learn the music so fast and record it as soon as possible. :D

Album art for Cinderella : Rethin on left and Ashwin on right

So we recorded the song in my camera and after finishing the recording, Rethin revealed a truth that the song was actually written and composed by himself. I was shocked Jenny, Oh god, I even felt like a minor heart attack. :D We were recording a new song till now? I was very happy Jenny. We recorded the song in a lot more better way, and shared on Facebook. Thank god, and many of our friends liked it. We were so glad. That's how Ashwin heard the song. He liked it and he said we can record this in a studio and make it more alive.

Rethin and Ashwin made me write lyrics for a popular english song for making it's malayalam cover and they said we will record both the songs together. Ashwin was not really a beginner in this field. He was already a professional in small scale so he knew a studio in his place where we could record the songs. Also Rethin, had a musical background. His father is a music director and professional guitarist. Actually I was the only one who is new to this whole thing. So, me and Rethin went to Ashwin's house and started making the background music for the two songs. It was one of the best moments of my life. His parents was so supporting unlike mine. :D We spend two days in his house. After setting the music and everything, we needed a name for the band and after so many name suggestions "The Imperfect Notes" came up. It was Rethin's idea to make it a long name just like "All American Rejects" :D and then we can call it as TIN by short. Jenny, that's how the Imperfect Notes was formed. :) The next day itself we recorded the two songs. The studio experience was so good. We recorded our songs at midnight. I really liked the sound engineer for his patience. So, Cinderella became very much alive from the Boss Studios. After recording I stayed with Sarath and Nitin at Sarath's house at Ernakulam. We had a blast in the next days. :)

Happy happy moments

Jenny, I will never forget this in my entire life. The moments I had at Ashwin's house and my first studio recording experience. If I am anything now, it's all because of Rethin. Off-course, whoever know me in my college, knows me as a singer and I am so proud of that and moreover I am always obliged to Rethin and Ashwin for that. Also all my friends who have supported us. With this I am concluding today's story Jenny. I will see you tomorrow. Take care till then.

Diary Entry - 15 "Twist of fate and rise of The Imperfect Notes"

Hola Jenny, How are you? Did you miss me? I am having the busiest days of my life I guess. My exams are almost over Jenny, but I want to tell you a sad news. I am not gonna be an engineer this time also. The questions were too tough and I don't think I will pass. What to do Jenny? I really wanted to pass this time, but I think my time hasn't come yet. :( So sad. Ah leave it. I don't want to make you too sad. So, what's up?

Today I am gonna tell you a story that changed my life. The story of "The Imperfect Notes". I never even dreamed of being a singer in this life when I was schooling. I used to sing at school, not in stage or a platform but in the classroom, with very low voice. Only a few of my friends knew I could sing. Not even a single faculty. I really liked singing before my friends. I still remember one of my friend at school named Shereef, he used to say, I will definitely become a singer one day. But I don't know, I never had that kind of a thought. I just wanted to make my friends and myself happy. So during my first year of college too not many of my friends knew I had some singing talents. Actually there was another singers in my class, coz of them I never got a chance to sing. :D (Hehe no issues) Rachel and Riya was the singers of our class. Srimathi teacher used to make them sing on a regular basis. :) I still remember Rachel singing a christian devotional song and Riya, some classic malayalam high pitched songs. :D

Actually, my singing talents were first realized by Shiny and Reshma, who were sitting at the front of me and Shan in the classroom. I used to sing all the time with Shan during the class hours. It was so much fun and off-course to get some girl followers ;) Yeah, every boys are actually same to some extend. All are so enthusiastic to impress girls. It was just the first year and we needed some girl friends apart form Rachel and Stacy. :) I think Reshma and Shiny really enjoyed that and if they didn't please excuse me and Shan now :) So that's how my singing talents got boosted. Yes Jenny, girl friends are a great asset. :) They made me famous in our classroom and even in the other departments too.

I have already told you that Deepu's guitar played a vital role in changing my life. It was our second year when Rethin brought a Guitar for Deepak. I haven't seen anything like that before, and so very excited. When Rethin played it for us, Uff ! I don't have words to express the feeling I had that time. I even wanted to learn it the very same day so that I can play "Nenjukkul Peythidum"(The best love song of that time). So this guitar made me more close to music and I became more passionate about it. Until then I just wanted to be a singer in my classroom but after this I really wanted to be a musician. Even-though Deepak was the student at first and offcourse Rethin was the teacher, eventually Deepak stopped learning and give studies more priority during exams. But me, on the other hand, was so addicted to this and continued from where Deepak stopped. :D So Rethin was my first and last guitar tutor. :) Yes, Jenny I have learned some basics and even with that I can make you fall in love. :P Hehe kidding, my friend :)

Till then the only English artist I knew who was alive was Michael Jackson and because of Rethin only, I started listening to more and more songs of other western artists. Actually I was going deeper into music. Slowly I lost interest in studies and was very determined of making an album someday.

Manthra on stage - Yup its me on the right-most

After someday's I heard our college day is coming. All my friends wanted me to sing. I too wanted to sing. So that I can impress Sasha. :D One day, a senior named Vivek came to our class and called Rethin, He wanted Rethin to play guitar in the program which they are organizing for the college day. A live music performance. I have heard before that Vivek is a singer. They were having actually a few other singers from our college too for the performance. So I thought there wont be any chance for me. But the next day, Vivek came for me and with him was Sharanya. They took me to an empty classroom and started auditioning. :D Hehe and I got selected. Therefore, I became one of the singer in their unnamed band. :) We were, around 10 in number. Ashwin was the keyboardist, but at that time we were not so close. We all practiced really well and somehow performed on stage on the college day. Prajith sir was our band manager :D We called ourselves "The Manthra". I still wonder how we could do it on stage. It was really funny. I still laugh when I see that video. So that was my first ever performance on stage. :D I wanted Sasha to see us performing, but since our performance was the last program, many have left by that time and only a few saw us. Thank god, she didn't see it :D. It was a disaster. Hehe.

To be continued.

So Jenny, I gotta get going now. Maths 4 exam on 6th Dec. I will go to Coimbatore tomorrow again but will be back soon and continue this story. Miss you till then. Adiós and Tener cuidado. :)

Diary Entry - 14 "A secret nomore"

Hello Jenny Dear, how are you ? Long time no see ha ? Really sorry dear, I am kinda busy. I think I started giving studies more priority these days. Ah just for a month. I will be free again soon. :) But this one month I think you will have to excuse me. I will move to Coimbatore yet again on 10th of this month for the exams and I hope very much that it is the final showdown. :) I am so passionate about clearing my arrears now and I think I started trying for that. But still, you know I cannot and I won't avoid you completely. That's why I am here.

Also how can I be like girls, who don't even mind their friends during the exam times, especially like Shiny. Hehe. How can she do that ? During exam times I couldn't even see her in the class. She will be sitting in some corner and not paying attention to anything else in the world other than her own text book. Not only her, I know many others from my class itself. Since Shiny is one of my best friend I mentioned about her now. I guess Anya and Reshma are the odd ones in this case. I have seen them helping others during the exam. Reshma helped me a lot in many exams. The best thing is none of the boys are so selfish. They are always willing to teach others what they studied. Even if they studied just one topic they are ready to teach it to others before going through the next topic. Especially Rethin and Nitin, who were always there for us, anytime.

Jenny, so today I want to tell you a secret. The secret that only my closest friends know. The secret which not even a single girl knows in that college. The secret of the boys. Especially the ECE 09 batch secret. :) This actually happened during the second and third years of my college. We used to have this internal exams in all the semesters. There will be three internal exams which will play a vital role in making us pass in the university exams. Since these exam were very important it is necessary to write it well. But what to do, who have the time to study for internals ? No chance :) But somehow we have to pass for all the internals. It says "It is the circumstance that makes a man an outlaw or a robber" Yeah the circumstance had a great impact on us too. Hehe. We used to write exams in an internal test notebook which will be kept in the staff room after each exams. We also had regular classes during internal exams. So lecturers won't get enough time to correct the notes at the day of exam. They will take time, minimum of two days. So keeping all these in mind we used to steal the test notes from the staff room after everybody left, write everything at home and put it back where it was before early in the morning. Always it succeeded, perfect crimes even though not so big. Hehe. Yeah we used to get very good marks for most of the internal exams. I still remember, I being in the class top five student list in third year first internals. :)

It was a very good time Jenny. We enjoyed a lot even though we were doing some criminal activities. It's even more fun while doing adventurous things. Isn't it? :) Oh my god I still don't know what have we done if somebody caught us. And the most funny thing is Rishad has even misplaced the notes and still nobody caught us. Hehe. Hmm. Hell of a time. We were very strong in numbers. We called ourselves "The Mafia" :D I know Jenny you are wondering who all were there with me. Actually I started it with Abhishek and Jimson. Then I understood Kiran, Rishad and some seniors have years of experience in this. Hehe. Then Manu, Rahul, and even Safeer started doing business. :) So that's how Abhi got full marks in Chemistry. Our Srimathi teacher was stunned by seeing that. Also the whole class was wondering. But only some of us knew the truth and we acted really well like we don't know anything. :) 

Mafia leaving the crime scene after successful heist.

Even now when I think of this I have goosebumps. :) Yeah I know, I have arrears for most of the subjects which I cheated like this in internals but I just wanna tell you that we really had a very good time. This incident played a lot in increasing my guts and made me how courageous I am now. :) We stopped it in our third year because of getting more and more arrears in the external exams. Yeah there is 'one' above us all and nobody escapes from his sight.

So Jenny, I hope you liked our little secret. I shall take leave now. Yup busy. Hehe. See you some other day. Take care now, bye-bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 13 "The untold feelings"

Hey Jenny, I am back. How you doing? I am kinda both happy and sad today. You know how serious I am when I talk to you. All the things I ever told you are the ones which I laugh at, or feel sad at even now. The good ones I will never forget till my end. The bad ones, ah since I am an Avril Lavigne fan, I think I should let it go, should break free from those. Yeah I have already set it all on fire. I don't want to even think about it now.

You know what, today Stacy saw my blog for the first time. As you know I never wanted her to see this. That's why didn't tell her till now. But I am so glad that she saw it today, because the things I already told you are the ones I always wanted to tell her too. Just wanted her to know I never hated her. I can never hate her. She said sorry, but why? I cannot blame her for everything. Even I have done many terrible things to her. All I wanted to tell her now is that, whatever happened is happened. I still love her coz she was my first best friend. I can never forget that and I will be there for her whenever she need me. I never wanted to make her sad by reading my side of this story. I know everyone has their own viewpoint about life and may be in her viewpoint she never done anything wrong.

I dunno Jenny, I have a very strong heart now. A rock solid one I would say. My past life has gifted me with that. It doesn't mean that I never miss my loved ones. Of couse I care for them too much. Hehe. It means that I am having a great control over my emotions now. I never cry for something or someone which is not worth to cry for. But today I am feeling sad for some reason. May be coz now Stacy knows that I missed her terribly those days. All I ever wanted to tell her. Anyways, I am glad now. :)

Me and Stacy - A Captured Memory

So Jenny, I am alright now. Feeling relieved. You are always there for me, then why should I worry? :)
Ough today also I told something other than my love story. Sorry about that. But just know that this is more important than that story. :) So I will see you again soon. Take care now bye bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 12 "IRET and me"

Sorry Jenny, It's been many days since we met. Really sorry. I don't know, I didn't feel like seeing you. I wasn't very busy but not idle too. You know what, many things are going on. I started preparing for exams. Oh my god, Jenny I am so optimistic now. I think I started thinking of my future in a very big way. Yeah, It can happen. I know. I am gonna chase my dreams and make it real. All I need to do is clear my present arrears and once I do that I am gonna explore this world.
Ah another thing is Rethin started a business. He is making guitar enhancements. Isn't it a very good thing, to apply what you studied during engineering in real life and making a business out of that. I am really proud of that guy. I think he started planning for the future of his family. Hehe.

I had a dream two days before. His business has grown into a big company, a multinational one and Iret ( that's the name of business ) has become a leader in the manufacturing of all music instruments and enhancements. It was actually a great dream. You know what, I want to help him the way I can to make his business very big. Of course we are partners in all businesses. :) Hmm let me take MBA first then I am gonna change my future and Rethin and Ashwin's too. :) The best future anyone would wish they had.

First Mini Mixer by IRET

Isn't that really cute? Anyways I am wishing him a great future. Way to go dear. I cannot help him anyway now, but surely I will one day. Get more details about Iret here.

Oops I was meant to tell the rest of my love story. Okay, but not now anyway. I will tell you that another day. Maybe because I am not thinking of love these days. Love is out of my league I guess. Well, that is better. I am not distracted by anything now.

So Jenny, see you some other day. Thanks for your time. Bye-Bye and take care.

Diary Entry - 11 "Story continues"

Hey my dear Jenny, how are you today? I don't know, Today I am not feeling well. Headache. Can't even get up from bed. But I am not gonna make you sad. I will continue the story. Since you are always there waiting for me. :) Also I have told you yesterday this story is already written during my second year. 

So here it is..

It was the day before the last exam, we both were having exam on the next day. I was having arrear and she was having regular for the same subject. :) I took a firm decision that I'll tell her my love tomorrow and so I have practiced for that for a long time. Even in the dreams I was doing the same. :)

The next day at college I wrote something for the exam and I was so sure that I'll flunk coz I didn't go there for writing the exam. Me and Safeer waited for her after the exam but my luck didn't favor me. I couldn't see her. :'( I went home with a half broken heart and crying mind coz I have to pass the next one month without seeing her. What's more painful than that? :(

Somehow I managed to pass the days with holding my love for her. 

A time when college was like heaven.

The next sem started. I went the first day itself to see her and yeah I saw her. I felt like something coming back to me. I felt very comfortable and happy like never before.
I saw her the next days too. By that time my friends, knowing my mind, started shouting my name when she passes by me all the time. So she finally came to know that one guy named 'SREELAL' is after her. But she didn't know how he look like. Hehe. I went to the department everyday just to see her coz her class was near to the department. :) I went there everyday pretending that I was going to see Prajith sir. One day myself, Nithin and Abi went before her classroom with the intention of opening my heart to her. I am so lucky to have friends like them. Always with me. :) But when Sasha came out I couldn't even move. It was like immobulous spell of Hermione. ;) At that day Prajith sir came to know about everything. He called us in and asked about everything. Oh yeah first he adviced me not to do that. he said it's a waste of time. But when he understood that I am very serious about her he also helped me a lot by giving some valuable advice of trapping women. :D

All my friends told me to tell her what I feel for her. Even I too felt the same and thought of telling it many times but its like when she is around I'll be always under the immobulus spell :) and yeah all these days I couldn't sleep.

I don't know what I liked in her, may be everything. I liked her the way she is. I liked her smile, cute face, the way she walks even though its little wierd. :) Yes she is very beautiful. But I know the thing I liked the most is her typical 'village girl' look and character.

At last I decided to tell her my love. The next day was a Thursday. I collected what all things I m gonna tell her and finalised everything. Even rehearsed it a hell lot of times in front of the mirror. I decided whatever happens I will tell her everything tomorrow. Actually it was not because I got guts so fast but when I heard that somebody else is after her. And I couldn't sleep all that night because of this. Yeah I became an Insomniac. ;)

The next day at college I cannot forget in my entire life. I was well prepared and so sure that whatever happens I'll tell her that I love her that day itself. No more postponing. I couldn't see her on the way to college. I went to the class hoping to see her during the interval time but Reshma gave me a shocking news that she was absent that day coz of fever. By hearing that I thought of crying but couldn't do that. That whole day I was completely down and even got migraine. Somehow I passed that day and reached home. At that day I could realize that I cannot stop myself from loving her. At that day I decided whatever happens I am gonna make her mine.

So Jenny, I think I will stop it here today. Need to get some sleep yaar. But I will definitely see you tomorrow. Take care dear. Bye for now.

Diary Entry - 10 "My love story"

Howdy Jenny, sorry I am a little late. Had many works yaar. ;) So today my second year story starts. :) Ough it was a nice feeling Jenny. We became seniors. Even though we had a belief that we won't rag in the second year when we got ragging from our seniors, we couldn't resist it. Yeah it was a lot of fun. I think ragging is an essential part of college life. By that juniors can meet new seniors and can know about them more. I will always support ragging. But ragging should be just making fun in a boisterous manner, not anything that can create a physical or mental bruise. So we too ragged. It was a good experience. :)

Jenny, second year was really a turning point in my life. I told you before about a girl who swept me off my feet on the very first time I saw her. Yup about Sasha. I will tell you that story. You know what? Actually I never wanted anybody to hear this story. But it's already a closed chapter and so I would not mind telling that to you. I haven't told this story to anybody, oh sorry I have told somebody. I guess only she knows this story other than me and the thing is, this story is already written during that days. So I just need to do some copy paste work here. :)

Here it starts...

Sasha...I don't know when she came into my life..Even though she neither loves me nor hates me I love her more than anybody in this world now..and yup she was the first girl I ragged inside the college..:) 

I still remember that scene...When me and Nitin told her to call a girl she didn't move due to fear..so I scolded her nicely and her cute little face turned red..She was about to cry..So we stopped ragging and escaped.. :)
At that day itself I told Nitin that I liked her, but I didn't take it so seriously..

Many days have passed after that..
It was end of our 3rd sem, I saw her again. At that time I don't know what happened to me. I stared at her, she also did the same but I couldn't stare for too long. I was afraid of looking at her eyes. But she stared continuously till she passed by me.

This happened many times through out the 4th sem.. Something has took birth inside my heart for her by that time. So I started knowing about her. I asked all my friends about her who knows her but none of them knows more about her though. The most relevant piece of information about her was given by Rachel. Hehe, that her native is Palakkad, she don't have a lover yet, she even hates love, she is a good gal, she is very talkative, she is friendly with anyone and everyone. Totally I felt that she is a perfect match for me. 

After that many nights without sleep. I didn't miss any chance of seeing her.

But inspite of all these. I didn't have the courage to tell her that I love her or maybe I was still not sure of that. I thought about it so well but I couldn't realize if its an attraction or love. Actually by that time I was in middle of both. :)

That college day was actually a twist in my life. At that day she came in a rose colored churidar. She was amazingly beautiful in that outfit. I stared at her like there is no other beauty in this world. But I didn't get more time to  notice her that day coz I was practicing for some stage  performances. But by afternoon when I went for lunch in the canteen, she too came there with her friends. At that time also we stared at each other. I don't know whether she stared at me for any reason but I did it with all the reasons..:)

I practiced well for singing that I could sing well before her..But my program was at night..she went at the evening..so I couldn't sing before her.
After the college day the external exams came. I saw her in between all those days too. :) At the externals I came each day just to see her. That holidays between each exams I was dying inside. I went to college even on the holidays because she was having exam on that day and with gods grace I could see her one day. Abhishek was also with me. We went to library. At that time she was sitting on the stairs that was beside the library. She was having practical exam on that day. I didn't see her when I entered the library. But when I got out I looked straight into her eyes. I was shocked and couldn't move for a while. I kept on staring at her for sometime. But Abi dragged me from there coz he knew that I'll be standing there till her exam gets over. :)

So Jenny, I will stop it here today. Will see you tomorrow. Take care now. Bye-bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 9 "Brothers for life"

Hello my dear Jenny, sorry I was a little rough yesterday. As I told, was really sad about some past events. No matter how hard I try some thoughts are just inevitable. But I am alright now. How are you Jenny? So where did I stop my story? Yeah, I said I will introduce some nice and gentle guys of my life. In second year we got out of the hostel coz hostel was only available for first years. I asked Rethin and he said they are going with a guy from MBA and they need two more guys. So I thought of going with Manu. The other guys with them were Jayan, Deepak, Rahul, Safeer, Chris, and Abhishek. But due to some reasons we didn't get that house and that MBA guy has gone with his friends. But we all decided to stay together. We found ourselves a house at Ettimadai. Not a house, but rooms. We booked three rooms since there was 9 of us.

I think it was a decision of god that we all should be together and I really am grateful towards that MBA guy for bringing us all together. Living with them was the most rocking days of my life. :) Jenny, now I will introduce each one to you. First of all I would like to tell about Jayan. Mr. Jayakrishnan Nair. The most funny guy I have ever seen in my life. The guy who made me laugh for even the silliest things he do. I can tell you, nobody in the world has made me laugh like he did. I can still remember, very clear, how I met him and what he told first. Sorry can't tell that to a little girl. I think the minimum requirement for hearing that joke is must be an 18 year old male. :P Hehe. I will never forget that in my life. I think everybody in that college likes him. We were too lucky to have him as our room mate. Love you JK. :)

At Malambuzha - in 2010

Then, Deepak, my god, never seen a guy like him. He is a guy who wants to be punctual in everything. He was our role model at that house coz no other better person was there. :) Oh yeah, and he was the main reason for my music addiction. :) His guitar most particularly. Thanks for that Deepu. :) Thanks for ruining my life. Hehe kidding yaar. Then about, Chris, when I first saw him, I thought he was just a guy with great conceit. Yeah but it was my prejudice. He was a down to earth guy actually. A guy who suffered a lot from us. Hehe. We called him the senior citizen. coz of his baldness. :) Then Rahul and Safeer, guys who live in cinemas. I think they will easily get a job in Central Film Certification Board. Even people there might haven't seen films like they did. :) Whenever I think of them the image I see is, both with a laptop watching film with steady, never-blinking eyes and with various funny bed gestures. :)

So that was our world. Ettimadai. Even now when I see that place there is an electric feeling in my veins. That's the place I am most fond of and nostalgic for. Okay Jenny, I will be back with more second year stories tomorrow. Take care now bye-bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 8 "Haunting memories"

Hey Jenny, today I am not in a mood to continue my story. If you ask me why, I don't have an answer. I may tell, I am having many other uncanny things going through my mind right now. But nothing peculiar has happened today though. I think I might have gone some way back to my past and there I might have found my scattered broken heart pieces.

Yesterday I have shared a status in Facebook. "You know you've found true love when you catch yourself falling in love with the same person over and over again." What does this mean? I found this meaningful yesterday but not today. Jenny, what if after falling over and over again for a person, we get acquainted with the truth we can't tolerate. There is nothing in this world we can predict especially human minds and what if they start wearing a mask over the so unpredictable mind and they says mind is the mirror of face.

I know Jenny, still now you don't know what I am talking about. Its just that I can't tell anything further today. Excuse me. I will see you tomorrow. Take care.

Diary Entry - 7 "The lost world"

Good afternoon Jenny. You are looking beautiful as always. I never told you this before right? Well I said it at least now. :) and come on, I know I am not looking too good. Even Anya and Shiny told me the same. But Nitin and Sarath told it isn't bad. Hehe. Well what do girls know about our likes. ;) and who do not like a change ? Actually I love my hair so much, the only thing that support me in this world of freak boys. Even my friends like it too I guess. Anyway its gonna come back within two weeks, not a big deal. :)

So, as I told you yesterday, I wanna tell you something which happened in our second year that really makes me sad even now. It is about Stacy. I told you she was my best friend. I would even say my first best friend because I never had one at school. I don't know, I liked her a lot. She, me, Manu and Rachel was a group as I told you before. We four became very close. But I could understand Manu and Rachel was having something beyond friendship. But I did not ask him or Rachel anything. One day Manu told me everything. That, they are in love. He will  marry her even if their family won't accept each other. I was happy for them. During this time, there was some other problems between me and Stacy. At first none of the Keralite girls liked any Tamil boys. But as I told you before Jenny, Stacy was different. She was actually fine with everybody. You know what, once we had a quarrel with a tamil guy. His name was Sanford. He was our main enemy that time. But Stacy was a friend of him. You can understand how sad I will be when my best friend is the friend of my enemy. But till then I didn't tell her not to speak with him or anything, I was burning inside though.

One day when she was messaging me, I asked her what was she doing till now and she said she was messaging Sanford. I was completely broken Jenny, I don't know why. But I was very angry and I replied her never to message me again and never to step on two boats at once. That was the last message I sent her. I was totally broken. Whatever made me did that, I didn't regret a single bit at that time. I was out of my control. The next day at college, I didn't even look at her face and I knew I would never do that till she come and apologize. I was very confident about her, I thought she will apologize within a few days. But Jenny, she didn't. The person I trusted the most in that college failed me. I was very sad. After thinking for few days I decided to go to her and tell her I was sorry. But when I saw she was being more and more close with Sanford, I became furious again. I was so possessive about her. Then, I became strong, I decided I will never talk to her ever again. I didn't even tell this to Manu and Rachel. After few days even Rachel also fought with Stacy and they too became enemies. Rachel even told me not to speak with her and Manu too.

But Jenny you know what, I was so alone that time. Rachel and Manu was in their own world and I lost my world after losing Stacy. But even then I thought someday she will come back to me. But she did not. I was completely down and alone for many days. That was the most wicked days of my life. It was my dear friends who brought me back to a better life again. Sarath, Rethin, Nitin, Akhil, Abhishek, Chris, Jayan, Vipin, Rahul, Safeer and Deepak then Reshma and Shiny too. So you can guess now why Reshma and Shiny are my besties from girls. But I did not tell any of them about this at that time. Those boys made me who I am right now. They were with me all the time, through all my hard times and good times. I love them like my family now. If I haven't told you guys this till now just know it now. I will miss you guys for nobody in this world.

Jayan, Me and Rahul, II year Memories

Right now I don't have any problem with Stacy, we are friends again, but not like before. I can never be like before coz I have already changed for good. But still now when I think about this I feel very sad. Either I shouldn't have been that possessive or I should have talked to her. Anyway because of that I have got the best friends of my life.

Oops now you might be wondering who are those new guys I talked about. hehe. I will explain that to you in the next visit because particularly one guy in that list will even take tomorrows whole post. :) So take care Jenny, Bye-bye till then. :)

Diary Entry - 6 "Angels of my life"

Howdy Jenny. Wat's up. How do I look now? Ya of course glabrescent. I asked whether you liked it or not. :-) I did it just a few minutes before. It was a sudden decision. Now I feel very light hehe. I did it alone. Thanks to Gillette blade for that. ;-) This is the second time in my life I am bald and the last time was around 18 years back. Anyways if you like it or not I am feeling wonderful. :-D

So where I stopped? Yup the university results and you wanna know who got first? Ah its Rethin, my dear guitarist. I don't remember when I met him. But I know because of who I met him, before telling about the other guy, let me tell more about Rethin. Where should I start. Okie, I would say he is a Wonder. A good looking guy, very modest, very silent, and was always busy. Whenever I go to his room, he was busy. He actually won't sit idle anytime. But I knew that he was a valley of mystery but I didn't know much about him though at that time. So he was our class topper. And as you know he is very important in my life now. I love that guy Jenny. I can never forget him. I wouldn't even dream of forgetting him. :) Will tell more about him later.

Next, about the guy I mentioned before. Harinandan. Because of him only I got more friends in that hostel like Chris, Rahul, Rethin, Jimson etc. He knew something about everybody in that hostel and he was from Alappuzha which was near to my Kollam. We usually went home together. At that time he was a very good friend of mine. He came everyday to my room and spend most of the time there. But Jenny, he too changed. He became a playboy. Hehe, and when we all left hostel at the end of second semester he went with his classmates and we got separated. 

Jenny, today I also wanna tell you about two most important ladies in my life and I don't want to change their name too coz I know they don't give a damn if I post anything about them. They are Reshma and Shiny. As I said, they are my besties among girls. I still remember how I first met Reshma. It was in the chemistry lab. I was sitting with Sarath. She sat near to us and she started talking with us. Very casually. I think she knew Sarath before. I don't actually remember what we talked that day but all I know is that today I can tell her anything and everything. She was a blonde and hot I would say. hehe ;) I think she is very concerned about her dressing. Even her uniform was so tight and fit. Oh my god I can't really recall what all thing the boys said, including me. ;) We all like to comment, isn't that right? :) Anyways I love her. Congrats for making it to Samcys dear. God bless you.

From Left : Stacy, Reshma, Rachel and Shiny

Then, about Shiny, Ah no words actually. She is more than my best friend, slim like me, then, cute smile I would say. A studious girl. I became more close with her in the second semester. As I told you Jenny, Stacy was my bestfriend till then. Actually Shiny wasn't very talkative. Oh god I still remember her filthy hair style in first year. Just like Einstein. May be that was the only thing I disliked in her and I think she changed it coz I told her to do so. :) I started talking to her in the first semester itself. It was because of our principal. Since me and Shan was sitting at the last bench in the boys row and too far away from the board he made us to sit in the girls side at the back of Shiny and Reshma. Thats how we started talking. Stacy and Rachel was sitting on the next row beside us. So we all became more close. At that time also Nitin was busy talking to Anya and Riya. Oh and Diya too. Let me tell about Diya now, I started talking to her only in third year. Yeah I know it was too late. May be she was the girl I talked last in the class. And Jenny, I will tell a secret, Many boys was having a crush on her. Hehe. Yes she was beautiful, She looked so mature. I will also agree she has a very nice hair. :) 

I will tell more about them in the coming days. So thats how I got Shiny and Reshma in my life. Two gems I would say. :) I hope they will always be the same. Tomorrow I will tell you something that I regret about, even now also. Actually thats the reason why Reshma and Shiny are my best friends from girls. Whenever I think of this I become very sad. Till now I couldn't get that off my heart.

Soo see you tomorrow dear Jenny, Take care.

Diary Entry - 5 "Studious Abi and unpredictable Anya"

Good evening Jenny. I know you might be wondering who are those three girls I have mentioned yesterday. Actually one wasn't from our college. She was from my place. I don't really want to talk more about her. I don't want to tell you how I met her or how I fall for her. All I can say is that I waited one year for her after proposing. But she didn't  give any reply about that. Even her mobile was sealed and she talked to me only once in two months. The problem was she was in plus two and she don't want to mess up her studies, I asked her one last time and her answer was a NO. Off course she gave me an answer after getting her plus two results that she loves me. But you know what, by that time I was on ground, somebody has already swept me off my feet  and dropped me on my head to the ground within a short while, A junior girl and because of her, I would agree "Love at first sight" or at least in second sight is TRUE :)

Okie I will come to my love story later. Now where did I stop yesterday? Yup Sou..oops Stacy. ;) Thats how she came into my life. I still remember the color of the dress she wore on the first day I met her. :( I told you before that there was one girl too from my place and one day at the canteen me and Manu talked to her. She was in our class only, but I didn't get a chance to talk to her till then. Her name was Rachel, she and Stacy were good friends. Both were in same room at hostel. So within a few months me, Manu, Rachel and Stacy became best friends. We even formed a group that we only knew. RM(S-Square) :D We became so attached. Also I started getting more and more friends. I already told you about Akhil. Then I got my ever loving Sarath, then Kiran, Ameer, Nitin etc. I purposefully omitted Nitin from my ever loving friend list because I want to talk a little about him. At first when I met him I thought he was a brilliant guy and yup he is brilliant, so I had an inferiority complex that he won't be interested in being my friend. Also he was very close with Rishad and Kiran. He even had many NIET friends and even girlfriends from our class. Whenever I watch him he was talking with Anya Stefenson and Riya. Oh forgot to tell you about those girls. Riya was really a fair looking girl. Anyone will have a second look at her face and about Anya, I would say really a strange character. She was the girl who catched my attention after Stacy. She was fat, but cute, had really a cute face. :) She was also a brainee, everyone liked her, even teachers. I know, teachers are only fond of brainees and studying machines. :P I always wanted to talk with her, but I couldn't, because she was always busy talking with Nitin. Also I think I haven't spoke to her much till the second semester. Actually I was having many assumptions about her. I assumed many things about her like how she may react when I talk to her, what if she don't like it. I always thought she was a step above me or two in every aspects.

Jenny, I admit, I was having many unwanted complexes and assumptions during my first two years of college and towards Anya I had it till seventh semester. :( I feel really sorry for myself. So because of that many complexes I had, I am still suffering. Okie leave it for now. So thats about Nitin, Anya and Riya. I will come back to them again. :) In first semester I didn't know much about many of my friends other than Stacy, Manu and Rachel. Actually all I want to know about was them and Shan too.

It was during our first semester exams, I came back to hostel after the study holidays. I wasn't too bad at studies at that time. So, studied something to pass for each subject. But at hostel when I asked to one of my classmate I was shocked. He was going for the third revision. I got so tensed, If this is the case with others too I won't stand a chance against them. Ah but who wanted good grades, I just wanted to pass. But that guy scared the hell out of me. That was none other than Abhishek. My dear Abimon. I purposefully didn't mention his name till now because I wanted to tell you about this incident. I even thought he was gonna be the class first, may be university topper. He was looking so sharp, confident and studious.

Abhi - The Handsome (Dear Girls, I advice you not to download this picture).

Jenny, this is actually not a good thing for laughing, but whenever I think of this I can't stop laughing. :D When the results came I had one arrear and Abi got 3. Hehe. Oh my god. even right now I can't stop laughing. :D Really sorry Ramu, you know I love you. :) and Jenny I will tell you who was class first in our next meeting.
So Take Care now Bye Bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 4 "The dons of thrissur"

Jenny, I am here. :) What's up? Before telling anything I wanna ask you a question. Can love happen more than one time? Its not a crime right. After all its love and not hate. Yes Jenny, I have also fallen in love, not once or twice, thrice actually and that too after coming to college.  But, unfortunately none of them have a part in my present life I guess and if anything changes I will surely let you know. :)

So, now back to story. The allocation of room was going on, Shan and I was quarrelling for Manu. hehe. But Manu wanted to be with me since we are from same place. So we three wanted to be in the same room actually. Who will be the fourth one? Ya we got the right one. hehe. Len Roy. The Underworld King. Oh god, Jenny I didn't even dream of him being like that. That was the most unexpected change. I still remember the day I saw him for first time and I would say he was the most modest and munificent of all the people I saw out there. He came with a story there. He was ragged by the seniors from our own AME college. I think he was the first one to get ragging from our batch coz our classes wasn't started till then and the seniors take him to their house. You can imagine how they will treat a junior at their home. I remember that senior name, Saagar and Len was so afraid of him. He even called him every day and reported the incidents happening in college. But Len is not the same guy anymore. He has changed to the worst now. Even started Marijuana business. Hehe kidding but he is in a situation more worst that that.
So finally since Len didn't have a friend and we three want to be together we all got one room. 306. The number I will never forget in my life. :) Still now the warden there knows us. Just tell room no. 306, 2009 batch and he will tell our names without a pause. :) So that's how we got into the same room.

Me and Shan Ikka (Big Brother)

Days passed and I became more close with Shan. In class also we sat on the same bench. The last bench particularly. In the first bench it was two brainees. Kiran and Muthu Kumaran. They had answers for all the question teacher asked. I even felt I am the only guy who knows nothing. :(
Ah forgot to tell you Jenny, now me and Stacy are acquaintances. In lab, since our roll nos are adjacent we sat together. :) and she was very talkative. One day Shan and I had a bet. He said if I can talk to her and get a notebook from her he will give 50 Rs. I accepted the bet, even though I was not sure. I wasn't very good at chatting with girls, at least at that time. :P
So the next day I went to college with only this thing in mind. Anyhow I should get a book from her. Hehe and I did it Jenny. I just told her I haven't completed the lab note and she said "why don't you take my note to hostel and complete it". She was such a nice girl and yup I won the bet too. :) And Stacy and I became more close. :)

So Jenny, Stacy was the first girl I have talked in that college and she was the first friend of mine from girls. I felt so close with her just after a few rounds of talking and within a few days we became very good friends.
Okie so I will stop it here today. See you later Jenny. Take care now, Bubbye then. :)

Diary Entry - 3 "More friends more fun"

Hello Jenny. How you doing today? So where were we? Yup Rishad, So that’s how I met Rishad. Back at the hostel I got one more friend that day. His name was Shan. Another modest guy who turned out into a disaster later on. At first when I saw him he didn’t even talk to me. Manu introduced him to me. I even wondered if he was dumb. :D Whenever I saw Manu, Shan was with him.

We became good friends. I got one more friend from my place, Arif. But he dropped and went to another college after one month. After knowing more about all these people I started enjoying my new class. We started sitting together. After that I wasn’t bored at all in the classroom. Time passed with more pace. So finally I started liking the college totally. Ah forgot to tell you Jenny, when I took admission I opted for Aeronautical Engineering. I was there for Aero only. But at office they said the Aero seats are all filled up and I need to wait for a few days till the government seats are filled up. So they made me  sit in ECE class and said if they get one seat and they will for sure, at that time I can go to Aero. That was really a nice twist in my life :)

Till then I haven't talked to any of the girls Jenny. But I noticed few girls from my class, particularly one girl, named Stacy. If you ask me why, I may say that she was cute, but short, may be the shortest in the class. :) Even Shan liked her a lot. He even said she have good lips. hehe. sorry but I already said I will be very honest with you. And yup I waited for a day to talk to her.

Me, Manu and Rahul - The Juniors

So after a few days, it was our room allocation. We have been called up by the principal after the class. whatever happens me and Manu wanted to be in the same room. But wherever, Manu is, Shan will be there. :) and according to Princi there should be 4 members in a room and 2 have to be from the same class. They started calling the name one by one. One can select any friend he want from the same class. I still remember, one guy, a small boy I would say, came to me and asked me if I am willing to go with him. But I said I was with Manu. That boy was Vinayak, who I thought was coming there directly after fifth standard. :D Now also he is cute but his character changed totally. I play an important role in that. :)

So Jenny, I guess I will stop it here today. See you again. Take care now, Bye bye then. :)

Diary Entry - 2 "A complete new world"

Howdy Jenny, :) I know you are being very patient and kind. That’s why I am here for you. So as I said, today I am gonna tell about my first day at NIT hostel. It was a complete new world for me actually. I have never been away from my house till then. I was alone and very sad. Even thought for a while why the hell did I chose this far away place when I could get a seat in colleges near my house. You know what, there are colleges very near to my house and if I wanted I could get an admission there very easily. But, I chose this college. ;)
My first friend at that hostel was Sanjay. He was my room mate but in NIET college. He was really a nice guy. He was from Palakkad. Then I got a few more friends in the first day itself. Anil, Ashwin and Vineeth. They were all from Thrissur. My god, it was really very tough to understand their language even though it was malayalam. We were together for many days.

At the day of taking admission, I came to know that two persons are there from my place, and that too in my class and one was a boy. I searched for him in hostel but couldn’t find him. All I know was his name was Manu.
The first guy I met from my class was Akhil. We were going back to NIT after having a fresher’s day at NIET college. On the way in bus he came and talk to me. I didn’t know that he was gonna be the most modest guy I would ever see in my life. :) At night at the hostel I could see Manu. We talked for a long time and I could know that his place is very near to mine. The next day onwards our classes at NIT began. The first day at my college. There were only a few boys and girls in the classroom coz the admission was still going on. I found a vacant seat and occupied that. The seat beside me was also vacant. I had a glance through all the faces in that classroom but none of them were familiar.

Akhil posing behind somebody else's car :)

After sometime a guy, who looks so gentle and mild came and sit next to me. It was Rishad. He started talking to me. He said he don’t know english and cannot understand english. So I said I will help him. Dear Jenny, I didn’t know that he is gonna be the DON of that college. :) He was too humble at that time and I don’t know what made him the most aggressive afterwards.
Oh my god, gotta go now Jenny, got some work. Really sorry to keep you waiting again. :) Adiós.

Diary Entry - 1 "My best decision"

Dear Jenny, I am back. :) So you might be wondering what a guy I am and was that the way to introduce to a girl. Well here I am to feed you with some more of my life stories. :) I am from Kollam District of Kerala. They says Kerala is Gods Own Country. I haven't seen many gods though. I am the younger son of Mr. Reghunathan Pillai and Mrs. Jayasree. I have an elder brother, Sreenath, He is now working as Biomedical Engineer.
Let me tell you about my school days. School wasn’t really very good for me Jenny. I don’t even have an unforgettable memory about that place. But there also I had some good friends and best of them was Arju and Akarsh. Those days was always a headache for me. I wasn’t good at studies. Didn’t even think I would pass plus two. But god made me pass. I am sure he did something to the one who corrected my mathematics paper. :)
I didn’t even think I would go for engineering. The previous day before the plus two results too I told amma that I will fail and so please find me a college to do diploma. Yup, it was a miracle and I passed. So that’s how I got into college. Many asked me why I joined Nehru College. Was it really a mistake of my life? No, Never. It was the best decision I have made. So the story I need to tell you starts from there, the college, because I don’t have much to tell about my school days. I never went there again since 2009, There was nobody I wanted to see there. The most hated place of my life it was.

My College - Nehru Institute of Technology, CBE

Some how I managed to get into Nehru Group of Institutions, in NRI quota. I always wanted to stay away from family and study some new things in life. That’s why I chose Coimbatore. I will tell about my first day at hostel when I see you again.. Till then take care Jenny. :)

Diary Cover Entry

Hello Jenny, I am Sreelal. This is my blog. This is the place where I am gonna see you and share whatever I want to share with you. Just know that I am gonna tell my own story. The story of my life.

For an Intro, I am a BE graduate..oops can't call myself a graduate yet, still got arrears yaar. :( Ahh but I am not so sad about it coz I chose this. They says your decisions are your fate..Actually studies wasn’t my prior activity during my college days. :) I am a great lover of music and I am so passionate about it. I have even made very few album songs with my ever loving buddies Rethin and Ashwin. We call ourselves the THE IMPERFECT NOTES. :)
I couldn't become anything till now. But I have great plans for myself. Will share those with you in the coming days. :)

That’s all for now. See you soon. :)